Scott Herman and The Hottie from School

School has started again, to my chagrin, but that’s not what I want to focus on right now. Today was a bittersweet day for a number of reasons. The first of which is due to the fact that over the holidays my love for Scott Herman was reignited. I stumbled on to one of his youtube videos and the more I watched his videos, the more I was reminded of how hot he is. Also his physical beauty was even made more attractive by his genuine kind heartedness. I was really trying not to get sucked in by him but when I found his Facebook fan page and profile he was too hard to resist. I just had to send him a friend request. This was very much out of character for me because I don’t send friend requests to people I don’t know and people who I am merely infatuated with. Despite that fact I did it anyway with hopes that a miracle would take place. Even though Scott had a fluctuating number of friends around the Facebook friend limit (5000) I was hoping that I would be one of the lucky ones given a shot to be placed on his list. Lol. From my little ramble I think you guys can guess what happened by now. Yup, he rejected my request. Lol. He however did it like a gentleman by informing me of his decision my email. Something he is not obligated to do. Scott is just an overall good, hot guy…The complete package in my eyes (minus being straight). Lol. So that was the bitter part of my day.

Now for the Sweet! As many of you know I am a HUGE Facebook addict so I am on this website almost 24/7. I just can’t get enough of it. Anyway, in previous posts I have often mentioned that I cruise the Facebook pages of guys that attend my university just for fun. Many of these guys are pretty hot by my standards but I know well enough that nothing will ever happen between me and these “straight” guys so I try not to dwell on their hotness too much. (Why did I let this happen with Scott Herman I don’t know!! ). I always get burned. So yesterday, I get this email from an extremely hot guy on one of these Gay Social Networking sites of which I am a member. I don’t really get excited about these emails anymore because they are just a huge waste of time for me. If this has happened to you a couple of times you get pretty jaded and don’t really give a crap who the email comes from anymore, hot or not. So I noticed that he unlocked his private photos for me, so true to form I go to his profile page first to check out his public pics. I was surprised, this guy was fucking hot. In the back of my mind I was saying, “These pics must be fake. Nobody this hot is ever interested in me” I then went to his private pics…..HOLY SHIT!!! This was one of the hot guys from my school. In my mind I was saying this is not happening. WHAT!! He’s Gay?!?! This can’t be real. I then went back to his Facebook page and on it, it says he’s interested in women. Lol. A closeted hottie!!!.....WooHooo, just the way I like them. I got a kick out of it. At the moment we are currently exchanging emails and everything he says is the same as it is on his Facebook Page and on the School’s Directory Information so I know it’s really him. I am trying really hard not to become too invested in him because if we do decide to meet face to face, I have this sneaky feeling that he is not going to like me and this is going to become a next Scott Herman moment. I really can’t deal with the heart break. I would be crushed, so at present I am trying really hard not to mess this up, say the wrong thing or give him the wrong vibe as I have so often done with guys I am attracted to. I just know he’s not going to like me if we meet face to face. Give me strength not to fall for this guy Dear Lord, I don’t think I could handle it if he rejects me.

A prime example of me messing up can be taken from an experience I had only 3 days ago. I went to the gym in the first time in a long time ( I was in Florida before) and as I walked through the door this really attractive guy comes up to me and says, "Do you want a workout partner?" His request really caught be off guard. Because of this shocking approach I found my mouth moving faster than my brain. I said sure. I then started my workout and he then asked me, How many sets of that (chest flies) are you going to do? I then said I just free style it (WHAT!!! Free Style? What the hell am I saying? NO!!) He then said, "Oh, I'll come back then" He never did. lol. I swear I am going to die alone. LOL LOL. I have gone over how I could've handled this differently like a million times. His request just really caught me off guard. Damn

Anyway, I will keep you guys updated.