Friday, October 30, 2009

Pet Peeves and Dislikes

There are a couple of things I want to talk about tonight. The first of which is my roommate. I think I've mentioned him before but if not, Yippee for you, tonight's your night. My roommate is a pretty decent guy. I haven't had any huge problems with him thus far and those issues I do have with him are the usual stuff you would expect from having any roommate. Despite this, he seems to drive me out of my freakin' mind. When I come home from a hard day at school I want my home to be My Home. Not your home, not our home but MY Home. When I come home I want to relax and do what makes me feel comfortable. If I want to walk around naked, which I find very un-restricting, I can do so without having to worry that someone will come through the front door and find me in my birthday suit. If I want to play my music until the house vibrates I can. If I want to sleep in the Living Room I can. If I put my butter in the fridge I don't have to be upset the next day when I find that half of it is missing. I don't have to walk behind anyone and pick up anything. Roommates are just a nuance to me. I seriously want to move out and find a place of my own but unfortunately the downside to this is that all the household expenses double, which leaves me with less money in my pocket at the end of the day. It absolutely sucks that I can't have the best of both Worlds. Honestly, I don't know how some of you guys live with 3, 4 and God forbid, 5 roommates. Anything beyond 2 and I would start going mad. I can't even stand one much less.

I am not sure if I can call this next part a pet peeve or even a dislike but I am going to write about it anyway. I might step on a few toes in this one. :( So my urges have led me to start trolling gay sites again, (like I ever stopped). And during my searches I have often come across amazing pictures of good looking gay guys. There are so many of them online that it is sometimes extremely hard for me to believe that they do exist, (Then again, this is the internet.....everybody lies so much that I can't even tell who is real or not anymore.) But these men are to die for. Sometimes, I just look at their pictures and sigh because I know it's never going to happen. Also, I have found myself visiting Craigslist a lot more frequently. I don't think I will ever reply to any of the Ads but I am drawn there out of mere curiosity. The stuff people write is just insane. There is however one reoccurring theme I have noticed in both these Ads and profiles. Can you guess what it is?

NO Blacks, NO Asians, NO Old Guys, No Fatties, NO Femmes, I'm Straight-Acting, I'm Masculine etc

Firstly, what the hell is Straight-Acting? Is it another way of say, "I don't act like a faggy sissy boy. I am a heterosexual look alike." How does straight come into it? I always thought that we were all fucking other guys. Doesn't that make us all fags? I guess I was wrong.

On some very very rare occasion I have had the opportunity to meet one or two of these "Straight-Acting" muscle guys outside of the cyber world but when you meet them, you are like really? You? Straight-Acting? Honestly, I have never really considered myself to be straight acting but I am definitely more straight acting than some of these guys who claim to be. I guess what I am trying to see is that not everyone on the internet who professes to behave straight does. Therefore if there are inconsistencies in what they say then there are definitely inconsistencies in other things as well. You never really know with people you correspond with online.

However what really gets my motor running are those men who discriminate based on race. I am not telling you who to like, I am just saying it's not kool. Don't put it on your profile even if you think it. It makes you seem narrow-minded, which, Big are. I would assume that those men who stipulate these conditions have never been discriminate against, whether it was their age, their sex, a physical disability, whatever. Otherwise you would have thought twice about making your dislike public. It's not a very happy feeling to tell some they aren't good enough. And the fact that many of these online sites are filled with these men who stipulate these conditions doesn't make life any easier. My God it's Hopeless everywhere!!!

It would be very hypocritical of me if I said that stipulating all your requirements is utterly distasteful but i can't, because I do understand where these guys are coming from. For one, it eliminates all the undesirables, so their time isn't "wasted" talking to someone who isn't worth their time....yes it's harsh but it's reality. I myself think like this at times but frankly you can't help who you like. And some guys don't really have the patience to beat about the bush so they tell you up front. Personally, I wish I could adopt this approach but I am not a cold-hearted bastard. There has to be a nicer way of telling someone you are just not interested without sounding like a complete dick. Stipulations like these, obviously don't go over well with me. Not being given a chance because you are black, asian, fem, old, whatever is total bull shit.

Finally, there are those that look down on others because they have headless pics. Give me a God damn break. It's not like any gay guy was born "Out". All you assholes were in the closet at least once too so don't behave that you are better than everybody else because your face is showing. Infact you should be more understanding of what it takes to reach your level of comfort.

I swear, sometimes this "Gay Community" crap can be so pointless. It's just a bunch of insensitive jerks, insensitive jerk wannabe's and those brain-dead zombies that follow them......(yes doesn't apply to everybody).

Saturday, October 24, 2009


The more and more I become settled here, the more and more I have less time to blog. That's terrible. I don't want to become one of those bloggers who blogs every now and again. I usually hated blogs like those. And sadly mine is turning into one.

So what have I been doing? Well..trying to survive school for one, but I won't get into that tonight. Just did three exams back to back on Tuesday and Wednesday and not looking forward to the next one, a week from now. Anyway, in one of my posts I mentioned that I drank so much alcohol that I kinda lost my senses for a while. I don't know what's happening to me. I never usually drunk alcohol. My friends are a bad influence on me. Now I am doing it regularly. Damn American Culture.

Last night I had dinner with my friends at a Thai restaurant, the food was absolutely amazing by the way. I had duck and it was spicy and delicious. I was in heaven. So we all got Beers, on the house, and can you imagine I finished my mine before all the other "Long time drinkers". I felt myself getting a little mellow so I knew I should stop before I got out of line. Never in a million years would I have thought I would get tipsy. It's a weird feeling but, I always feel happy, boisterous and a little unable to restrain myself when I am in this state. One of my other friends though was totally wasted. It was hilarious watching him act crazy. He was clearly out of his mind. All he could talk about was how long it has been since he last got pussy. lol. I was dying from laughter. And he is the reserved type of guy who you wouldn't expect to say stuff like that. It's so fun to play with drunk people. In my mind, I was saying, "I want some dick but you don't see me complaining". Now that I think about it, that's a lie. I complain about not getting any dick all the time. lol

So many of you might not be into appearances, that's fine, but I am. I always have to look good when going out, even if it's just a 1 hour class. You never know who you might run into on that particular day, and I am talking hot guys here, and you have to leave an impression. If he's gay make he want to fuck you right there. lol. So I was really in need of some winter clothes so I went shopping today. I went out with the intention of just shopping and not looking at the prices. Just Buy, Buy, Buy. And I did just that. When I got home I was totally happy. All my clothes looked AWESOME on me. Thinking about it now makes me giggle. For someone who is doing their first winter clothes shopping I am doing great. I plan to get two more winter jackets though or perhaps three. lol. I have six already. Don't judge me. I love clothes. I came across a Columbia Store recently and went inside to look around and fell in love with a winter coat there. I am definitely going back for it this week. It's so amazing. I also want a "The North Face" jacket but they are so damn expensive. I swear "The North Face" is a cult here. Everywhere I go I see it. People just buy it or fun I guess. I also want one of those high fashion coats. Saw a few, but not the style I was hoping for. I will keep looking. It will look so great with some of the other purchases I will be making in a few weeks. Yes...I do love clothes. I hate to mention this too but I also saw a suede jacket in Old Navy that I also love. The design and color were perfect but suede tends to attract a lot of lint which really detracts for the jacket. I don't know if I want to pay so much for a jacket and then have to go through so much trouble to clean it each time. No way. if it were a different material it would've already been in my closet. Over the next few weeks I will be building my Winter Wardrobe and I am totally excited. It's going well thus far. Lets keep our fingers crossed that it remains so. I guess it makes more sense now, why when they robbed my house a few months ago they made off with my clothes too. Assholes! My clothes are expensive and they look good.

As for meeting a guy. Has not happened....yet. I am still hopeful. I should be able to find someone I am attracted to who is also attracted to me in return right? lol....I laugh because I know the answer to this. If not, I might just kidnap one of those hot boys from the gym locker-room, tie him up in my room and have my way with him. lol...then go to prison where they will have their way with me. lol. I always wonder, "Why are so many hot gay guys single?"'s an enigma.

Anyway, I am off. This week is going to be very hectic for me too so I might not be able to post in a while. I will not be going to school on Thursday or Friday because I will be going to a Ski Resort for some fun. I am so excited, which also explains why I went shopping for a few winter clothes today. On Saturday I also have a Halloween Party. Not sure how that's going to go. Shit that means I will have to do laundry tomorrow. Oh snap! Totally slipped my mind. Won't have time this week or next weekend.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Facebook Makes the World Small

The more and more I meet people, the more and more I realize how small a World I live in. It's ridiculous.

I usually hate my weekends here because I never usually have anything to do but school work. At least during the week I can go somewhere with my friends if I am bored. So not wanting to feel bored this weekend I decided that I was going to go to a function they had on campus. None of my friends were there so as usual I went and sat by myself. The table I sat at was huge and I was the only one sitting there so it made me feel even more awkward than I already felt. Luckily a few minutes later I saw two of my friends come in and I motioned to them to come over and sit with me. These are people I talk to pretty well so I was excited that I finally had some good company to enjoy with the free food. I didn't even have a ride back home so seeing them made it even more serendipitous. Anyway, in my last post I mentioned that before I came here I was stalking a few hot guys on Facebook, "Stalking Tony". So while I was having a good chat with my friends, 4 very hot guys came and sat at our table. The cutest guy I recognized immediately....I even knew his name out of my head. (Yeah, I really sound like a stalker). I had seen his picture on Facebook everytime I searched and he was even hotter in person. He was latino and he dressed well....OMG that boy was hot. I was even more delighted when he sat right beside me. I could have just reached over and put my hand on his crotch or smell is neck if I wanted to. He was sitting that close. The other guys were utterly hot too. There was another latino guy and two very attractive black guys. One of the black guys seemed very familiar but I couldn't put my finger on it. As the night progressed, they started to play a Jamaican song and I saw him singing it and then it clicked. He was also one of the guys I saw on Facebook and I remembered he had some Jamaican heritage too. So i asked him, 'Are you Jamaican?" and he said "I was born there". I then said that was great. I really didn't want to give off the wrong vibe so I stopped the conversation there. The other black guy sitting beside him was even sexier. My friend who was sitting beside me was crushing on him hard. I had just cut my hair earlier that day, by myself i might add, so I was feeling very self conscious about it. We both saw how the black guy's hair was neat and pretty and she decided to use that has a spring board to strike up a conversation with him. I was like don't do it please, but she wouldn't listen. He was too hot to resist. I must admit all the guys were very good looking but I knew nothing would have come from sitting at a table with them because I distinctly remember their Facebook saying straight. I am not chasing any straight guys. Not worth it. Oh well, perhaps I'll see them around again...they are here for a couple more years. lol

I also had another party to attend shortly after this one so when I got home I rushed into my apartment, grabbed the wine I bought earlier that day and went to the next party. I don't drink alcohol so it was more of a courtesy. This party was being hosted by one of the gay guys I met a few weeks ago and and he had invited a couple other friends over. Later I found out that it was actually his birthday. Anyway, the party was dubbed, Wine Tasting, so everybody brought a bottle of wine or fancy cheese. When I got there quite a few people were already there but as the night progressed tonnes of people showed up, more than I thought would have been there. From the get go I was drinking wine every minute. I never liked drinking alcohol, at all, but I found myself drinking so much. I had a few (8) glasses of wine and I slowly felt myself getting weird. I was a little more giggly and a little unbalanced. I had to sit down a few times. It got so bad that I accidentally knocked a glass from one of my friends hands and cut my hand. Luckily the cut wasn't too bad. Thank God. At that point I knew I had to stop drinking...I think I was tipsy. The birthday guy was like filling up my glass all the time and I had to tell him to stop. I didn't feel well. He then said I could sleep here if I wanted. He was hitting on me the entire night. Forcing me to dance with him, Kissing my neck, rubbing my abs/stomach and smiling with me, holding me by my waist, kissing my neck again and all that other stuff people do while flirting. I must admit that feeling is facial hair on my neck felt freaking awesome. I really wasn't attracted to him so I didn't want to give him the wrong signals. He was Latino too but he was not as hot as the latino guy that was sitting beside me earlier that night. If that guy had hit on me then I would definitely be rolling around with somebody last night. :D. My God he was so hot. As the night wore on I was feeling really tired and a little bit sick so I decided to leave and go to bed. There was also a white girl there that was hitting on me. She even took my hat away and wore it the entire night. She too was also trying to get me to dance. To be honest, I couldn't stand being hit on by these two people. It was too much and too conflicting. Should I act straight and flirt with the girl? Or should I just indulge the guy and show that I am gay? None of it was working for me so I just decided to leave.

When I got home I went on Facebook and found all the names of the guys that were sitting at my table. It so happens that while I was going through their friends list I noticed a pic of a girl I saw at the Health Center a few weeks ago. I thought she was amazingly hot when I saw her. I don't think that about girls so you know she was good looking. It turns out that this girl is also Jamaican. What are the odds? lol. Trust me Facebook connects the world. You find connections you never knew existed with that thing.

So that was my night.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Stalking Tony

Before I came here, to the University, I usually searched Facebook for cute guys that attended the school. On occasion I would find a few hot guys but it so happened that when I checked their profiles they were all straight. However there was one hot guy that wasn't straight. He had Sex: Male, Interested In: Men. I was shocked to finally find a Hot, Open, Gay guy here. I was so happy. I don't know why I was happy but I was happy. It's not like I was ever going to meet him so I didn't get too overly crazy about findiing a Hot gay guy. Sadly, from then until now I have found myself occasionally checking his Facebook page.....aka see what he is up to.

Only 3 days ago I was talking to one of my readers (AXORIAN) and I mentioned to him that I was stalking someone from my University. He then said to me, "Is the guy ok with you stalking him. To which I responded, "I have never even met him muchless seen the guy in person. I've only ever seen him on Facebook". Well all of that changed the day after. Yeah...I know pretty weird.

So i was walking to one of the buildings on campus and I see this guy in a red pants and Black and White Plaid shirt walking towards me. Just the day before My advisor asked me what type of clothes do Jamaicans wear and I told her bright festive colours. To which she responded you won't see that here. Everyone wears dull colours...blacks, greys, dark blues etc. So i decided to put her theory to the test. So on this particular day I was looking at the type of clothes the students were wearing around campus and it so happens my advisor was correct. Seeing this guy wearing a red pants just catch my eye. This was not the norm. I didn't even look at his face. I was just looking at the clothes. Then my eyes worked its way up to his Face. I almost died. It was Tony. I was screaming in my head, "IT'S TONY, IT'S TONY" I can't believe I got to see him in person. I just kept looking back to make sure my eyes weren't playing tricks on me. Honestly I thought that was the first and last time i was going to see him.

Today, I went to the gym, working on arms and who comes and sits right across from me? You got it...Tony. I was saying this was too good to be true. I saw him for the first time yesterday and now he is sitting across from me. He was working on his abs. And trust me I have seen them on Facebook......They are great. This must be faith, I thought. For the rest of the time I was just watching every move he made. I couldn't help myself. Anyway, I hope I will see him again. Maybe I will get the courage to say hi or just bump into him, "accidentally". lol. Or perhaps not do anything. He didn't look in my direction so that's enough for me to know, "Look he's not interested".

Also I must also mention that one of the hot guys (one of the really hot ones) I came across during my search on Facebook, is in my class. I literally wrote his name down while I was in Jamaica so I wouldn't forget it. So imagine my surprise when he walked into one of my classes. I have spoken to him a couple times but he is not the type to come to class frequently and he is straight so I haven't even bothered working on him. I am done running after straight guys.

So that's that. I finally saw the guy I have been stalking for weeks now. I feel good. I just thought I would share it.